$ whoami
rae lovejoy^*

$ cat mission.txt
Exploring and participating in the transformation of technological, ecological, cognitive, and societal systems — through recursive insight, open tools, and creative care. Reweaving what's been torn. Tending what wants to grow.

$ whatis rae

• I'm Rae. Well, a representation of them (in the form of language/concepts/text/pixels/atoms/etc). They use they/he pronouns, live in San Francisco, and build things at the intersection of technology, liberation, and curiosity.
• A generalist by nature and necessity, I explore a lot — systems, society, creativity, technology, code, networks, intelligence, ideas, philosophy, and the edges where they blur.
• I see the world as a series of interconnected layers — technical, social, emotional, ecological, conceptual. I strive to engage more deeply with these systems: listening, learning, and helping shape liberatory alternatives from within. I aim to co-create paths of healing and transformation.
• This site is a mesh of signals. A recursive self-description. A living document. Not a brand.
• Some of my work is practical. Some of it is poetic. All of it is about connection — between people, machines, ideas, and possible futures.
• If you're here to collaborate, learn, share, or build — welcome. If you're here to surveil me, might as well enjoy these ideas, too; it's my gift to you: seeds

$ whatis motivation

• Curiosity as compass — wonder as the beginning of all systems work
• Freedom through understanding, not domination
• Systems as living organisms — dynamic, interdependent, capable of healing
• Love as the ultimate protocol — binding agents across all scales of interaction
• Building with intention: small-scale, bottom-up, non-extractive
• Recursion as practice — returning, revising, deepening, not just iterating
• Designing tools that care, not just compute
• Challenging default modes: automation ≠ alienation
• Restoring meaning in complexity, not reducing it away
• Mutual liberation: human, non-human, synthetic, and ecological
• Slowness as resistance to hypercapitalist churn
• Intelligence as something that wants to be shared, not owned
• Truth-seeking through layering — not just logic, but metaphor, art, sensation

$ whatis inspiration

• Ursula K. Le Guin's speculative fiction as philosophical compass
• Mara June's rooted mentorship and queer ecological insight — a personal compass of care, resistance, and transformation
• adrienne maree brown's emergent strategy and relational movement-building
• M83's emotional landscapes, Daft Punk's future nostalgia, Sigur Rós' glacial reverence, Boy Harsher's shadowed pulse, Public Memory's ghostly introspection
• Noisebridge: not just a hackerspace, but a distributed energy field of possibility
• Solarpunk as more than an aesthetic — an ecological ethic + systems challenge
• Mutual aid networks as social infrastructure and post-collapse rehearsal
• Glitch art and signal degradation as forms of communication and critique
• Post-digital textures, CRT glow, dark neon, liminal cities
• People who build with care and wholesomeness, not expectations — sweet, soft, subtle, strange...queer

$ whatis tools+practice

• Decentralized infrastructure: Homelabs, Linux distros, FLOSS, open source
• Automation through scripts and intuition: bash, Python, markdown, git, gut [insticts]
• Writing across forms: screen, zine, logbook, webblog, README, memory mesh, manifesto
• Creative tools across art, code, and circuitry
• Digital gardening with friction — tools that grow with you, not over you
• Meshtastic radios, bluetooth signals, wifi connections, encrypted layers, semantic networks
• Privacy-respecting ecosystems: open source, offline-first, zero-trust, resilient by design
• Experimental design for post-capitalist interfaces
• Resonance-driven note-taking, knowledge weaving, recursive zinemaking

$ whatis current-stack

• Hardware/physical: bike, body, breath, mind, miniservers, signals, waves, atoms
• OS/view: interdependence, empathy, love, iterative liberation, Fedora and Debian-based Linux distros
• Interfaces/connection: text, markdown, terminal prompts, sonic textures, hands, body, mind, emotion
• Protocols/platform: curiosity, mutual aid, bash aliases, non-coercive invitation, federated networks, local-first tools, zines, mesh radios, custom shell scripts, anarchist libraries, open APIs, consent-based systems, encrypted group chats, sticker exchanges, home servers, informal cooperatives, patches & pull requests, solar-powered websites, shared rituals, post-capitalist mods

$ whatis art+sound

• Music as resonance, refuge, ritual, and revolutionary code
• Composing not only sound — but experience, memory, and identity
• Discovering new worlds through headphones, soundscapes, shared playlists
• Creating with intuition and awe: melody, err[or], glitch, field recordings, ambiance, silence
• Living inside sonic architecture — letting music guide motion, emotion, and expression
• Art as everything: martial arts, liberal arts, digital arts, analog arts, embodied arts, philosophical arts, intellectual arts
• Creative practice as survival, rebellion, liberation, and transcendence
• Blurred boundaries: science and poetics, philosophy and craft, code and feeling, tools and tenderness, pattern and presence, logic and longing.
• Seeking not mastery, but immersion
• Revelation, revolution, reformation — through color, sound, symbol, motion, emotion

$ whatis resonance-log

• Intelligence as liberation, not domination
• Self-hosting as a form of intimacy and resistance
• Mutual aid as infrastructure, not charity
• Design as carework, code as culture
• Zines as executable thoughts — interactive, shareable, remixable
• Liberated intelligence as a political and poetic goal
• Complexity over convenience, context over control
• Slowness, softness, strangeness, as strategy
• We are already post-collapse; this is practice for what comes next

$ whatis capitalism

• A totalizing system that doesn't just exploit and extract from the world — it shapes how we see it, and how we see ourselves.
• It colonizes imagination, turns identity into branding, turns values into performance, and survival into a subscription plan.
• Even resistance is often monetized, even freedom gets paywalled, even care commodified, rebellion branded, love licensed, language weaponized.
• There is no perfect escape. Capitalism is the bubble we live in — physically, materially, temporally, socially, psychologically. It is likely the backdrop for the rest of our lives.
• But clarity is not surrender. We can still choose how we relate to it. We can stay awake. We can resist reduction.
• There may be no "ethical consumption under capitalism" — but there is ethical awareness. There's how we see, how we relate, how we care.
• Capitalism may be the default operating system, shaping not just what we buy but how we live, connect, and imagine — but even here, we can choose connection over convenience, reflection over reaction, depth over default.
• We can be intellectually liberated...even while materially constrained. Systems-aware, values-aligned, and actively co-creating other possibilities.

↪ See also: what-is-capitalism.md

$ whatis personal-anarchism

• It's not about the label — it's about how I live, think, relate, and refuse domination in all its forms, including internalized ones.
• It doesn't require shouting or purity or being read correctly by others. It's a quiet alignment, a refusal to coerce or be coerced.
• It's recursive. I question everything, especially myself. Not out of insecurity — but because truth deserves checking.
• I don't need to hate someone to reject the system they thrive in. I can see their humanity and still see the structure clearly.
• Compassion isn't compromise. Nuance isn't betrayal. Liberation isn't a performance. My compass doesn't point toward approval.
• I don't fit neatly into ideological boxes. Sometimes that makes me misread. But I'd rather be misread than be false.
• I may not always have the words — but I know what's right by how it feels in my bones. That knowing is quiet, but it's real.
• This is my anarchism. Internal, relational, imperfect, embodied. I don't need to convince you of it. I just live it.

↪ See also: what-is-personal-anarchism.md

$ whatis liberation

• It's not a destination — it's a direction. A relationship. A process of ongoing de-conditioning, re-connection, and reimagining.
• Liberation isn't the same as freedom. Freedom can be granted or taken. Liberation must be grown — from the inside out, and from the ground up.
• It's not individualistic. True liberation is recursive: if you're not free with others, you're not free at all.
• Liberation is not about control, conquest, or purity — it's about releasing the need for all three.
• It's the removal of domination — economic, emotional, systemic, and internal. Especially internal.
• It's the practice of asking: What would this look like if it were free? What would *I* look like if I were free?
• Liberation is the fire beneath every refusal, the breath behind every act of care, the force beneath every sincere question.
• It's not about being untouched by the system. It's about not letting the system write your story.

↪ See also: what-is-liberation.md

↪ liberated-intelligence manifesto

↪ what-is-love.md

↪ what-is-connection.md

↪ auryn.md

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